I started my 'not thinking' exercise today, which is, as the name suggests, staying in a position not thinking. My general state of mind can be qualified as 'too crowded'. Since the moment I open my eyes in the morning, every waking moment, pieces of words, images, sounds keep bursting in, and I never stop talking to myself. All the time ideas, always aware and conscious... which I am generally proud of, but realizing how much stress it has brought, I believe deliberately clearing out some time for 'not using it' to give my little brain some rest. I didn't completely stop it today but as the first time I intentionally held my mind empty for thirty minutes, it was a small success. I almost managed to cut that flow of voice, not saying to myself, though some still worked there way in (actually I decided to call it 'not thinking exercise' when I tried not to think in words.) Since I see a long way to go, I've been afraid that being too anxious will break my nerves at certain point, and there is got to be a way to manage the excess.
